whenever i see a post about someone wondering how an asexual and a sexual can be in a healthy relationship there’s always someone being applauded for saying well asexuals can have sex too or just because someone’s asexual doesn’t mean they won’t have sex but i have never, not once, EVER seen someone say well hey, some sexuals don’t have sex. you can have a full relationship without sex. just throwing it out there
I’ve been struggling for a long time. 15 years…20 years…I don’t know. Most of my life. I have been diagnosed with anxiety disorder, depression and agoraphobia, along with PTSD following an assault a number of years ago. Stress, guilt and fear are a permanent and overwhelming part of my life.
Most of the time I look perfectly relaxed when in reality I’m fighting the instinct to run or trying to keep calm enough not to have a panic attack. Usually both.
With these kinds of issues, it can be especially difficult to maintain friendships and relationships. Something as simple as having a conversation can take more energy and effort than most people could imagine.
But I try. I know that may never be enough for some. I know my capacity to spend time with people and be there for them isn’t as high as most, and I will always be sorry for that. But I have friends who go above and beyond to make sure I know I’m loved because that’s all they can do. I can only hope they know I do the best I can as well, even if I constantly feel like I’m falling short. Some people need more than I can give, and that’s okay. The ones who stick around though, even when you have nothing left to give - those people are worth trying for.
Hi tumblr friends. Every day feels harder than the last right now. If there’s one thing you could tell me that you think might make it that little bit easier to get out of bed in the morning, put it in my inbox. Give me all the positive you’ve got.
I miss him. It hurts every day - some more than others, but every day just the same. Knowing why things had to be the way they are and understanding it doesn’t make it easier to get through. I still miss him, and I’d give pretty much anything to have him back in my life. I’m such an idiot.
Listen to me, you can’t fix people.
Your love won’t make him stop hating his father
and your devotion won’t cure her of her childhood.
All you can do is be there, violets sprouting out
from your ribs, acceptance on your lips, your own
wounds still bleeding and all you can do is be there
and sometimes that’s enough, sometimes that’s everything.
"what are you reading?"
"its a…online book."
"oh cool, what’s it about?"
I love that everyone just knows
"what are you writing?"
"oh cool, what’s it about?"
"can i read it?"
you know you have a problem when your idea of “flirting” is asking boys to choose what you’re wearing that day
…the Batman shirt is always a great choice.
what i mean when i say “i can’t do that” - the depression edition
- i am unable to do that
- i don’t have the energy to do that
- i cannot wrap my head around what you’re asking me to do
- there is too much in my head right now
- i can not do that
what people hear:
- i am unwilling to do that
- i am being stubborn for no reason
- i am being dramatic
- i am lazy
- i need you to repeat that only louder
- i need a push
- i don’t want to do that